I can't be successful here much longer.

  I have come to an unfortunate realization lately. I have looked at my future and mine and my parents' finances and noticed the strong decline. We are obviously not rich, like many of the top players around the junior and senior circuits, so attending all the circuit tournaments is unreasonable and impossible. My goal this year had been to hopefully qualify for the 2012 World Junior Championships in Tokyo, Japan. Even if by some miracle I made this team (Which I am not even close to doing) I would not be able to afford to attend the tournament. I had made plans to attend tournaments in hopes of making this goal possible but my finances forced me to choose one only big tournament instead of the many that I would need to qualify. I chose to attend the Junior Nationals in Moncton, NB in May. I made this rash decision because I have strong reason to believe this will be my last Canadian Junior Nationals. I haven't been able to secure any top juniors as partners either because of my inexperience and inability to compete at the National circuit's spread out tournaments. Soon I will not even be able to afford the training I need to play at this level.
  To put it simply, I believe there is nothing left for me here. Next year the well runs dry, no matter how good of a part time job I get.
 But enough with this sad story stuff. I'm not giving up. My dream is to do this as a living and I'm one step closer. I have strong reason to believe I am playing the best badminton of my life so far, but there is so much more to learn. But I will have to learn somewhere else. This sport has become something I can not live without. It still remains the reason I wake up every morning.
 So I will be aiming all my focus at the BC Open Provincials where I will be playing with Kaz T of my club. I believe this is my big shot of the year, and I do not intend to waste it.
"Have confidence, not expectations."
I have to go somewhere where I can do what I want to do without the constant worry of not making rent or training fees.
 Somewhere far.